It feels like yesterday when I had met you. You were deeply engrossed in your work with no interest in the things around you. I remember coming up to you to introduce myself. It was my first day in the team & you just seemed different & aloof, but a good kind of different. My first few thoughts were to get to know you better, to follow you around. I should have thought about quitting then!
I did not even realize that I have fallen for you until the day you went on a long vacation. We were connected through calls and messages. But, I could feel your absence. The coffee breaks and trips to cafeteria looked like mundane activities in your absence. How did I not realize it earlier?
You were always busy with one meeting or another. They said you are a critical resource. Huh, how much I disliked those useless meetings…It took you almost a year to open up to me. That’s when I got to finally know the depth of your soul. You were like an open book then. I knew that your raised eyebrows meant you are in a ‘do-not-disturb’ mode. I sat there watching your every move. Even your breathing patterns were known to me. The heavy sigh after a code failure, the easy breathing once you finished your work for the day. I can recognize these patterns even today.
It’s funny how things do not work out. After a while, I understood your commitment lies in your work. You could not survive being in a relationship. We were good friends, no doubt about it. But I understood that work would always come first for you. It took me sometime to adjust to this idea. And, I eventually did. People say I should I have tried to talk you out of the workaholic mode. I should have stayed for long & given you a chance. I should not have quit so early. My heart knows that what I did is right. After so many years, I can see you are happy with the position you hold. Still not committed to anyone else except your work.
Did I make a wrong choice? Would things be different today if I had stayed? Am I quitter? – We all may have different answers to the above questions. The important thing is to do what your heart feels is right! 🙂
P.S. – This post does not bear any resemblance to real life events & is a figment of my imagination. 🙂